there are
few things
that can be
either
so wonderful
or
so painful
then developing
a roll of film.
. . .
i remember
my first
camera.
i received
it on
my birthday-
when
i was in 4th grade.
a polaroid 600.
instant love.
my brother,
who has
the most
beautiful
handwriting,
wrote
in careful
b l o c k
letters
my name
down the
back side
{when you
are from
a big family
you always
write your name
on things
that you love}.
he used
one of those
highlighter pens
that
were really
popular in
the 80s-
they
wrote in
silver
with a tiny outline
of color
and
they soaked
through
the page
a bit or
would leave
a little
silver puddle
if you
held them
pressed against
the page.
when i was
18
i graduated
to
the SLR camera.
the canon AE-I.
my boyfriend
bought it
for me before
i left to europe.
this is when
i learned
about
the great joy
of dropping
film off
and
the excitement
of picking it up
to see your
travels
all over again.
moments
that
you had forgotten.
after college,
i moved
back to seattle
and
took
my first
photo class.
this is when
i learned
about the
great disappointment
of
photography.
when you
try
so very
hard
to take
those photos
you see in
your head
and
then
after
picking
them up
and opening
the flap
of the
envelope
you see
crappy photo
after
crappy photo.
that feeling
at the
pit
of your stomach.
a great
disappointment.
today
afer picking
up
my last 2 rolls
of 120 film
i took
in nyc
this weekend,
i waited until
i was on the metro
to open
the envelope.
i was
crushed.
these
were
the only
three
that
i could salvage
that
were
okay.
sigh.
xo
11 comments:
Oh, I so know that crush of disappointment. Next time.
I love the ones that did develop. Especially the one with the feet.
I'm so sorry. But these are nice. Especially the top one. Love that.
Oh I feel your pain. We all have been there too. But I really do like the second picture that you posted on this entry.
those three are really beautiful though. one of my photography teachers always said that film is going to be you least expensive item, so shoot a lot. you have to shoot a lot to get those gems.
Yes, you pretty much described it.
E.
Yes, I know what you mean. I was a shit photographer until digital. I really like the first two you posted, though. Especially the one with the legs in ankle-strap shoes.
i know what you mean as well, but these three photos are gorgeous! especially the last one.
ah yes. so true. but then these 3 are beautiful. so there is light at the end of that disappointing tunnel
the second photo is such a favorite! i totally understand though especially when you are feeling it as you shoot and so eager to get the film back! not to mention that we are our worst critics. xo
There's a kind of love hate relationship with film sometimes, those you salvaged are beautiful though, loving the wallpaper in the first pic.
Been there too. Why not digital? It really is getting better and better... maybe even making people better photographers because of the instant feedback. Course you're an awesome photographer already but still...
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