to know...

me
means:

when i am social
i am
very very social
but when
things
get tough
i shell up
and
feel
very very
introverted.




i have
a hate/love
relationship
with rain.
i hate getting wet
but
i love
an excuse
to stay in
when i should
be outside
collecting bugs.




i don't like
people
to see me cry
so i usually
hide in bathrooms
when i need to cry.

i have needed
to cry a lot
lately.

i am not sure
if it's because
i was raised catholic
but i feel
a lot
of guilt
and am
often
disappointed
in myself.

i hate
"should haves"
but i dwell
on them a lot.




this past
week
i promised
myself
not
to wait
to call
or write
to someone
because
there is
nothing
worse
then looking
at a shawl
on my shelf
when the person
who it's for
is no longer there
to send it to.




no matter
how many times
i do it,
there is always
something
incredibly
comforting
about
finishing
a knitting
project.
it teaches
me that
each little stitch
means
something.

xo

10 years

today
grub
and i
have been
together
for 10 years.

i tried
to think
of something
to write
all day.
something
that
didn't sound
cheesey
or
overused.

but
i couldn't
think
of the
right words.

because,
i think,
there
are
10 years
of
words...
and
moments
and
expressions
(grub has
the most
expressive face).

people say
love grows
or
love fades...
i think
love is.

like the
moment
(i imagine)
you hold
your child.
you know
love fully.
it doesn't
need to grow
because its
all there.
right there.

that's
how i felt.
it was
there-
complete.
complete in grub.

now
i've
gotten
all cheesey.

oh well.

happy 10
sweet grub.

xo

when to say when

you know
what i mean.

when you
are working
on something
and
the more you
fuss,
the more you
mess it up.

with knitting
i have learned
to
put it down
and walk away
because
it's only gonna
get worse.

i thought
changing
polaroid
cameras
would
improve things...
lately,
few things
irritate me
as much as
a messed
up polaroid,
especially
with
the state of things.

keeping
my fingers
crossed
for a
better week
because
tomorrow
is
a very
special day.

more about
that
tomorrow.
xo

cold wind blows

{saturday}


{sunday}


a rough weekend:
my mac
was
mailed off
to applecare,
my polaroid spectra
is
on the fritz,
and
i owe the irs.
poo.

hope you
had
a better
weekend!
xo

rain or shine

with spring
comes
the dilema...



what to wear
when the
forecast
is warm
with afternoon
showers?



i am
feeling
quiet...
reading
and
knitting
a lot.

hope to get
this
lime kool-aid
dyed
sweater
done
this weekend.



hopefully
i'll have
something
to show you
next week.

have
a
productive
weekend!
xo

rocks vs shells

some girls
grew up
with barbie.
my mother
wouldn't
let me
have barbie
(not sure i even
wanted a barbie)
because she was
anatomically correct
(if you can
call her that).
so i had
strawberry shortcake.
i loved
their outfits
and
that they
all came with pets.
i played with them
for hours in
an old dollhouse.
mostly
my dolls
threw
a lot of parties
and invited
the
herself the elf dolls
to come over
(herself the elf
sadly lived
in
a minimalist house
made out
wooden blocks).

i always thought
growing up
with
strawberry shortcake
had an effect
on me.
this may have
been
the genesis
of
my obsession
with colors,
striped tights,
and wearing
mary janes
(instead of
barbie high heels).
strange to think
how toys
potentially
can influence
a young child
so much...

growing up
by the beach
i was never
into shells
(unless they
still had
the animal inside).
my sister
collected shells
and
i combed the beach
for the perfect rock.



i have always
been
obsessed
with rocks.
particullarly
rocks with lines.
maybe
due to
an early
exposure
to
andy goldsworthy.



shari
is doing
a photo zine
on rocks...
can't wait to see it.
i wonder if
the participants
are all
strawberry shortcake
types...

. . . . .

next time...
a few polaroids
from
my tour
of
the heath factory
with lisa.



have a great week!
xo

sea ranch collections

my collections



kids collect
easter eggs
at
the lodge



deb & maria
collect



grub helps
me collect
rocks
with lines



grub collects
architecural
details



botanical collections



arranging
collections

have
a lovely
weekend!
xo