Friday, September 15, 2006

the final week

a week to go

in one week
at 2pm EST
i will walk
into a tiny room
and
spend
3+ hours
being grilled
by 5 professors
(my committee).

then they
send me out
into the hall
for about
10 minutes
(probably
the longest
10 minutes
in my life)
while
they discuss me...
and then
they call me
back in
to tell me
if i pass or fail.

if i pass,
it means
they accept
the research project
i proposed
and feel that
i have the expertise
to complete it.

then i have
2-3 years
to finish
my research,
write my thesis
and
defend my thesis
to the same
5 people.

if i fail....
well,
we won't
think about that.
mostly i want
to stop
stressing
and
studying.

obviously
this is
really really
important
to me
and
i have been
stressing about it
for over a year.
but at this point,
i tell myself
again and again,
all i can do
is
my best
.

so in order to
do my best.
i will will
disappear
from
the blog world
for a week...
(i probably
should have
done it for
a month
but i am a
blog addict)...



i will miss you all.
keep your
fingers
crossed...
see you
next friday
evening-
hopefully
i am drunk
and have
good news.

42 comments:

Lily said...

Good luck Gwen!!! Sending postive vibes + hugs your way from the west coast : )

K8 said...

Good luck! One of my friends from my old program is prepping for her quals in October. Hope it goes well!

amy rose said...

good luck gwen- i will have my fingers crossed for you on the 22nd. but you strike me as the kind of person who never does anything half-assed, so expect good news next friday!

julie said...

Wishing you the best of luck but you dont need it..you be fine!!!!
See you next week!! xxx
p.s. love the pics - very cute!

alyssa said...

Oh my gosh, I thought you were doing that today and I was amazed by how relaxed your posts seemed. I just thought to myself, wow, she is a real cool cucumber.
Good luck with all your preparations you already have all that you need and your mind and soul knows that, so you will do great! If they don't like it, well that is a big loss to them.

shash said...

i am sure you will have good news!

Amy said...

So close! I have no doubt you'll do well. Take care of yourself this week!

stephanie said...

best of luck getting through this week!

Eero said...

You'll pass. Your best is phenomenal.

Nicole said...

Good luck to you!
You sound very prepared, I am sure that it will go smashingly.

(I am a blog lurker, but I felt that I should speak up to offer word of encouragement)

Beta said...

Ich drücke dir die daumen natürlich! Aber Glück brauchst du nicht. My best friend just passed her prelims and I took it as a sign of good things to come in your neck of the woods.

suzamaphone said...

you will not fail. they will think you're the smartest and only say good things while you're out of the room for those 10 minutes. xoxo

lisa s said...

fingers, toes and enything else are crossed. i know you don't need the luck, though. you are going to knock their socks off...

xo

lisa s said...

ps. you gotta come guess the song on my blog though... then you can disappear!
v

hildy said...

i've got the cocktails on ice!!

Austen G. said...

good luck! i'll cross my fingers, but i don't think you'll need my help. i'm sure you'll show them *exactly* how it's done!

Lisa said...

We'll all miss you next week, but know you'll do fab on your exam!

MARYBETH said...

REMEMBER DEEP BREATHING !
No doubt you will be brilliant =)

p.s. your living space is appealing * inspiring.

Hagit said...

Good luck, I'll be crossing my fingers for you!

gracia said...

Good luck from me too! All fingers and toes are crossed over in my neck of the woods as well.
see you, g

justine said...

good luck! You'll be fabulous :)

nichola said...

Lots and lots of luck heading your way, although i'm sure you'll do fine without it. :-)
PS. Your WAY overdue package will be in the mail to you on Monday.

Funky Finds said...

Good luck! You will be in my thoughts this week. I'm sure you'll blow them away. :)

yahaira said...

you will kick ass! I know how stressful your defense can be, just relax and take it with stride.

Jenna said...

Best of luck to you!! As you said, all you can do is work hard and see the results. I'm sure they will see your knowledge and intense passion for your subject, and that will count for alot.

Shari said...

go gwen!! you can do it. i'm thinking of you. xo shari
ps: i scored a little treat for you from the scrap exchange last night. :)

kylie said...

just wanted to wish you the best of luck and to let you know that i, like your numerous other blog fans, have total faith in your ability.

see you on the other side!

flim.flam said...

yet another lurker brought into the clearing by quals fever!
(i'm glad i'm not the only one)

you will do fabulously

we'll all be missing your creativity
sending you good thoughts
and looking forward to your return

Anonymous said...

Good luck! Remember that your committee is with you, not against you. Success in prelims often depends not just on what you know, but how you deal with being questioned. Be confident, smile, and remember that you are the expert when it comes to your own research. I know you'll do fabulously!

Alison said...

Good luck - fingers crossed :))

Debbie said...

I would say Good luck but I have a feeling you will not be needing it. YOU ARE GOING TO PASS with flying colors!

OldandBusted said...

You own that prelim!

kelly said...

eek - you just brought back long lost memories of my proposal defense... you won't need luck, just nerves of steel and perhaps some arrogance and bravado thrown in - depending on your committee!

eireann said...

you will do it!

I know it is nerve-wracking--I was just there in May--but it will feel SO good when it's over, and you will pass!

aja said...

So much good luck!! I had a lot of catching up to do on your blog, so I am sending tons of good vibes your way!

ashb said...

oh Im so late in posting my comment! I know you will do awesome! You have worked so hard! You deserve it ;)

We are all sending positive vibes your way!

hugs,
ash

blair said...

oh my gosh, I was spellbound reading this. Yes, disappear, although we will all miss you, bunches! Good luck!

tigerlilith said...

i'll be keeping my fingers crossed tomorrow... and probably having a glass of wine or two tomorrow night in anticipation of the good news that i'm sure will come. :)

Austen G. said...

good luck tomorrow, gwen! we're crossing our fingers for you in halifax!

debbie said...

so how's you do?

maditi said...

the best of luck all the way from germany!! you´ll do just great!!

amanda said...

fingers are crossed, and I'm hoping for the best!! I can't wait to hear your GOOD news!!