holding on to my corners

i love
my apartment.
it's the first place
that i ever lived
that's almost
perfect.

it's 1930s
vintage
with cool
glass front
cabinets,
art deco fixtures,
spacious rooms,
a vintage tub...
and
it looks out
onto the park,
has lots of light
and
HUGE closets
in every room
{that's where i keep
all my collections
julie!}



some of you
may know
that i have
to move soon.
the owners
want to
rennovate
the historical
wing where
i live so
so they can
charge
super duper
luxury
rent.
so
their tactic for
getting
everyone out
is raising
the rent 20%
every 160 days
(it shouldn't be
legal but
loopholes
allow it to be).
we just
can't afford it
(we could
barely afford it
as is)...



so they are
going to
"modernize"
these gorgeous
old apartments.
grub and i
strongly
disagree
with each other
on the ethics
of modernization.
i say historic buildings
should be valued
inside and out
(historic buildings
only have
to preserve
the outside appearance)
i believe things
were made
better with
more care
and interior
architecture
should
be preserved.



grub
is more
practical
{=architect}
and argues that
in this case
things have
already been
replaced
and much of it
(like my
beloved cabinets)
wasn't made
that
well in
the first place.
and
things have
to be updated,
however classic
so they
function better...
e.g.
vintage sinks
that don't leak,
cabinets
that close properly
and
toilets
that don't
waste water.

i hang on
to things...
i am a woman
in love with
the past-
watching it
thrown away
just breaks
my heart.



so i am
holding
onto
my little
corners
for a little
bit longer.



more
corners
here
and here.

.....

it rained yesterday.
hard.
and
the ground
became
a carpet
of leaves.